December 25, 2024 - Another after 2am Thoughts

Obviously, it's past 2am. 2:17am to be exact as of this momennt of writing. I just want to savour and remember what i am effin thinking and feeling as of this moment.

Yung feeling medyo alanganin kasi di ko ma-explain. Though marami naman na ako napapanood or nababasa about this. I think it's called limerence. Or is it not? Ewan

Basta kapag about emotions talaga, napakalawak ang scope niyan, mostly hindi accurate at ang hirap i-explain with words.

Kakatapos nga pala ng noche buena. Happy birthday Jesus! Yey! ☺️ Parang nagmidnight snack lang ako. Kasabay ko kumain si cho. That's around 12:30 am to 1am yata. Tulog na si mama, myki at dana. What's on the table? It's ham, queso de bola and chicken macaroni salad. Then napagisip isip ko, why not wrap them with seaweed. Turns out good! You should try it. I think naman anything wrapped in nori sheets will turn out good. Seaweeds kasi enhances flavors and di ba nga, umami...?

Back to why i decided to write this piece again. Parang nagiging freedom wall, confession cubicle at diary ko na ito ha. Well according naman to this blog's description, it's about anything, a place where i get to say what i wanted to say but never did. But...may limitations. Siyempre yung medyo private, embarrasing and i know will get me into trouble, i do not publish. All the people's names involved in each of my published entries, unless it will not harm them, i keep them in my drafts. I just go over them whenever i decided to visit this blogsite and malay ko ba sometimes kapag tinotopak i will just decide to publish them right away and bahala na ulit si batman kung magkabistuhan na. Haha.

Eto na naman. Inaantok na naman ako eh. Actually naka dalawang beses na akong tulog kagabi at ng after lunch kahapon. Mga 3 hours each din yun. Siguto binabawi ng katawan ko yung mga nakaraang puyat ko. Hehe. Puyat ba ang tawag dun? Eh when i sleep at 3am, i will wake up at 8am. So at least i have 5 hours of sleep. And i think it's enough na kasi after clinic hours minsan, i get a short sleep at 5:30pm till 7pm or 8pm. If medyo pagod until 9. Then magdidinner kahit hindi na gutom. Nakasanayan na, which i think i have to stop that habit. Yung kahit hindi naman gutom, kakain pa rin. I want to change that.

*Wait lang. Itutuloy ko pa ba to? Medyo pumipikit na mga mata ko eh. Paggising ko mamaya, malamang iba na mood ko. Ni hindi ko pa nakwento bakit ako malungkot ngayon.