Today marks the first hour of my 4 decades of existence in this so called planet Earth.
I have come to acknowledge that, just like Jon Snow, I still "Know Nothing".
There's still so much to learn, places to go, emotions to contemplate and control, people to meet and build rapport (and be disappointed by their existence and wished you have not met them anyway and end up being a misanthrope). Kidding. 🤣
Those realizations are enough reasons to always remember to remain humble, be appreciative and be grateful for everything, for this gift of life, for the good, and the bad and the ugly that comes with it. For there's always pros and cons, negative-positive, ups and downs, yin and yang.
This day might also be the best day to apologize to the people i called old at 40 when i was a lot younger. 'Cause now i finally get it when they said, they effin' do not know what the f*** they were doing back then either. Sorry... The meme was true all along! Hahaha!
I have also finally accepted that i could no longer go back to sizes XS and S. It's now M if i wanna feel confidently fanciable but regret it later anyway because you don't know how greatly i endured tucking my bloated pot in just to look like it was the same as when i was 18. So L would probably be my most comfortable fit now, where i could move freely and won't struggle tucking in and holding my breath for a long period of time. 😅
In addition to body changes 😅, this day might also be the best time to regret not listening to our elderly when they said, take good care of your health. Junk the junks! Get enough sleep and exercise daily. Because, deym! I still consider myself young ha but my back feels like it's seventy-ish na! Age diseases also starting to get evident! It's all true! And yes, "Noooooo!" will also be my reaction! 🤣
Lastly, but will never be the last grasp in all of these 40-ish drama, is that never feeling bad ever again for myself for making a lot of mistakes. In fact, making mistakes is the key to learning anything in this world. I have finally embraced the essence of never regreting any of the decisions i made because it will only lead to another decision-making anyway! Then to another mistake, then to another, and then to another mistake to learn from. It's an endless loop! Why waste a stew?
You will prolly still see me making mistakes and might get famous by making a lot of it. Suure..i will get hurt and get scars along the way. Every battle won't be that easy. But, oh no! You will never see me succumb. These scars are my medium to the peak!
